usually, i dont take naps in the afternoon but today is different. due to the lack of concentration, tiredness and boring subjects, i had a 30 minute 'sleep'. hmm.. afternoon naps are quite nice actually.. refreshing!
it must be the symptoms of overstressed hitting in. i presume... Overstressed leads to several factors: over-eating (which i'm doing) forgetfulness (i'm getting this as well.. read n forget) agitation (yes, u guessed it..) aggression (those strikes of the RAGER mode).
hmm.. u guys are probably not interested in all these 'sciency' stuff.. i shall stop here. leave u guys with a few of my food photos taken this week..
cooking for a family of 4 for a week!
its nearly done.. huge pot of mushroom soup chicken, masak merah chicken, 2 pots of beef with mushroom.
Final Product: Masak Merah Chicken.. less than 1 pound for this meal.
the 4-week easter break is coming to an end.. how i dread this, for the exams are looming closer n closer n lectures are starting once again. this means waking up at 8am which i will probably find quite hard to do..
Everyday is 'vital'. havent been hitting the gym for a month now n i can feel myself getting unfit..
All the oily pizzas in italy n home-cooked meals we've been having these past few days, the home-made cripsy roast duck, the bah kut teh.. awesome meals that make u feel like a blob of fat at the end. hmm.. lets leave all these worries aside..
its my first time embedding a youtube video on my blog =/ just wanna share this video with u guys. it has touched me emotionally n made me reflect on what we may have taken granted for in life.
Back when I was a child Before life removed all the innocence My father would lift me high And dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around till I fell asleep Then up the stairs he would carry me And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance Another walk, another dance with him I'd play a song that would never, ever end How I'd love, love, love to dance with my father again
Ooh, ooh
When I and my mother would disagree To get my way I would run from her to him He'd make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah, yeah Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep He left a dollar under my sheet Never dreamed that he Would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance One final step, one final dance with him I'd play a song that would never, ever end Cause I'd love, love, love to dance with my father again
Sometimes I'd listen outside her door And I'd hear her, mama crying for him I pray for her even more than me I pray for her even more than me
I know I'm praying for much too much But could You send back the only man she loved I know You don't do it usually But Lord, she's dying to dance with my father again Every night I fall asleep And this is all I ever dream
is it me or is life just going hard on me now? im on the verge of going insane, as i've been staying in the house for at least a week without stepping out into civilisation. concentration levels have been dropping ever since.. i need to get myself back to reality. stop the daydreaming.
there is a lot of work to be done. there is not enough time. time will not wait for u. there is a promise to succeed.
time sure do pass by in a flash.. its been 5 years we've gone without u. the thought of this conjures up memorable times we had together. the days when u taught me golf in the driving range with those 'baby' clubs to the time when i started using proper clubs. the time when u gave me the inspirational talk about electric circuits for my physics homework has been deeply imprinted at the back of my mind, arousing my senses and motivating me to work hard to get a degree in engineering. When asked whether engineering was the right choice for me to pursue, all you would say was 'Do anything that you really enjoy'. And for this, I'm grateful and thankful that u were there for me all the time.
i think i'm going crazy.. this pulsating right eye problem has been hitting me through the days n nights for the past week. no pain.. just bloody annoying.. spastic twitching of the bottom eyelids..
Possible problems... 1 lack of sleep 2 depression 3 stress 4 medical concerns 5 too much caffeine 6 being on the computer for too long 7 eyestrain - keeping your eyes focused at the same distance for long periods of time or working under bright lights or in areas of very high contrast and changing focus often.
i have had a dose of caffeine every now n then.. green tea seems to be the main problem under my speculation. ohh well.. time to stop the green tea for a bit n see what happens..
Wake up - between 10 and 10:30am Breakfast Study - start 11am Lunch - between 12:30 and 2pm Study - toilet and kitchen breaks (x3 or 4) Dinner - between 7 and 8pm Relax - 1 to 2 hours Study - start 10pm Repeat for X days till exams
my working timetable has been planned.. it looks very bleak for the next 8 weeks (6 weeks for preparation for the final exams n 8 exams in the final 2 weeks). concentration is the key here.. but i m lacking it now.. i cant get maths into my head. Bloody fouriers and laplace transforms!
Went on a 'rager' mode just now. Must have scared my housemates off.
Really burned out~ i need my rest. thats all for now~
cooking for a family of 4 for a week!
its nearly done.. huge pot of mushroom soup chicken, masak merah chicken, 2 pots of beef with mushroom.
Final Product: Masak Merah Chicken.. less than 1 pound for this meal.
